Thank’s to Tara Sophia Mohr, I’m learning how to Play Big. People who know me might look at the things I’ve done in my 31 years and think I already know how to play big. I’ve backpacked solo across Europe, quit a lucrative job in corporate america to live and volunteer in South America, spent 40 days walking across Spain (aka the Camino de Santiago in Spain), jumped out of an airplane and hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon. I’ve gotten my masters degree and am a Registered Dietitian and a Certified Yoga Instructor. But I know there’s something I’m NOT doing…a calling I haven’t quite actualized. I have this feeling that all of my experiences (the good, bad and even the ugly) were necessary to position me perfectly to carry out this calling. And while I am not 100% sure what it’s about, I am sure that I am not yet 100% qualified. This, however, Tara says is a sure sign I’m on the right path. (“Assignments always grow us in some meaningful way. You will have to evolve, develop new capacities, and show up to life in new ways,” she writes.)
If you are also trying to find your way, check out this post. In it Tara asks:
What happened here? How did so many of us lose and shut down our voices, or turn away from our right paths? What is the primary, fundamental cause, if there is one, and what are the secondary ripples that happen from there? Why are so many of us still paralyzed in sharing our voices in the world?”
Here’s an expert from my response.
“… there does seem to be a theme that we lose our voice when we lose faith in ourself. And as you point out even people who grow up in a relatively supportive environment can manufacture their own voice of doubt and unworthiness. Perhaps then the reason we shut down our voice and shy away from our path is connected to forgetting our connection to spirit, to divinity, and to love. That what we desire is already inside. That worthiness is our birthright. And we don’t have to do anything to deserve it. But when we forget, we clam up. We worry we have to say the right words and do the right thing and look the right way in order to be okay/accepted/loved/worthy.
But perhaps this is all okay. Perhaps even necessary. Because there is so much beauty in the remembering. The re-connection. The learning to speak up, share out, dive in. Connect, engage, go beyond…again and again.
I think many of us are still paralyzed because of a lack of mentors, older sisters, role models or other ‘real life’ people to light the way. ”
Tara has surely helped to light my way, and I have nothing but huge gratitude for her and the Playing Big women who are shaking up and rocking my world. Thank you. My heart salutes you. Satya!